There the boys and I are, driving down the I-8, heading home and out of nowhere it hits me like a ton of bricks! The tears start pouring and I can't help but feel lost, out of control, depressed, overwhelmed, irresponsible, and a failure. I MISS JACOB!! His death, even now almost 7 years later changed me so much! As a mom- it changed me in a negative way I feel like. Gonna be honest here and state how I feel: I am NOT the mom I want to be or ever pictured myself being! I don't know how to get back to that! I think that when Jacob died and although I became pregnant with Sammy just two short months later, that part of me died. HOW DO I GET BACK???
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